Accursed

So here's a video I made for my English class' final project. I put a lot of effort into it and it's kinda the reason why I've gone AWOL for a bit. Enjoy!

Gifts to Pika 2: Electric Pokemon boga-loo

So for Pika's birthday I decided to get her a cute onezie as well as a bit of a comic. I've recently started working on my art, so I took a crack at a quick Star Wars comic that'll continue to work on and send to her. It's not the best art, but it's something! Here are some pictures!

Life Update: March 2018

March was a busy one, as you can probably tell by me writing this near the end of April. I took a short spring break but unfortunately I didn't break much new ground on videos and other content I wanted to create. It's become so hard for me to find motivation sometimes, and I really need to kick my ass to get anything done nowadays. However, I'm trying to power though it and am making progress slowly but surely.

I had another couple tinder dates in March, one that went great and one that didn't. I'll probably write up the stories of both dates later, but lets just say I'm actively talking to one and haven't spoken to the other. The girl I am talking to I can't do much with at the moment, as it's become crunch time for classes and we are all super stressed out for them. Hopefully we can do something after exams.

Speaking of exams, I want to die! School is stressful as always, and I don't know if I'm going to be able to pass my trig class. I studied really hard for a test the other day and just absolutly bombed it. I don't know why I try anymore. The more effort I put in, the less I seem to get out. I'm talking to the professor about it, and he might be able to help me, but I wouldn't get my hopes up. I'm just confused about life at the moment. Am I really meant to be here? Is this really what I should be doing? Is this worth doing? I don't know, and that scares the shit out of me.

Pika and Machamp broke up. I kinda saw this coming, as she was complaining about him a bit and started referring to him as "my boyfriend" rather than just his name. It a bit obvious their relationship was straining, but apparently they grew really distant. Machamp broke it off because he just didn't feel that spark anymore, and didn't think he could keep the relationship going through college. Pikachu's been really down about it lately, she told me she felt like he gave up on her. I feel bad for her, breakups are hard and she seems to not be taking it well. I'm trying to comfort her best I can in this hard time, I know she'd do the same for me. In any case, I just want her to be happy again. I love it when my special kitty is happy.

Life update: February 2018

Damn, February went by fast! This month was pretty eventful, and I've got a lot of info to fill I'll you guys in on, so let's get into it!

Firstly: videos. I've been working on my first video for a while, I just need to find out how to fix the echo on the audio because my dorm room sounds like I'm recording in a closet, but other than that I've been getting used to vegas so hopefully I can start making things faster. Also: Shadow Destiny live read number 2 is still TBA, in just trying to coordinate a good time to do it in the discord.

I've also started to dabble a bit in art. It started as doodling but now I'm just trying to improve myself so one day I might be competent at it. Pika's been egging me on this whole time, so she's happy I've gotten into it more. I'm promised to send her a bit of a drawing with her birthday present this month, and I might throw that up here when it's done.

As far as romance I went on a bit of another tinder date the other day. Thankfully she didn't blow me off, and I taught her how to play Magic for a bit. She seemed to really enjoy it, and I had a good time too! I'm hoping to hang out with her sometime this week, but she's so busy that might not happen until next weekend. Who knows if this goes anywhere, but I'm excited nonetheless.

College grades are actually looking good for once. Besides some hiccups in trig I've been more on top of my work and tests than ever before. I think I'm starting to get the hang of college, here's to hoping that my first experiences were just a rough patch!

9 years part 3 update

So, for the last couple months I've been on and off working on part 3. It's getting there, but I feel like I need to take a break to focus on schoolwork and other projects. As much as it interests me to talk about my past, I've just got a little burned out by it all. I have deiced to officially put the series on hiatus, but don't worry, I'll still be making content and still be working on it sporadically, but don't expect it to come out until this summer. I know many of you were looking forward to this, and I'm sorry to let you down. I feel that it is my duty to you guys to put the most effort into my work, and I felt like I wasn't doing it justice by trying to rush it. I hope you all understand, and have a great day :)

Shadow Destiny Part 1 live read is here!

For any of you that missed it, the live read of Shadow Destiny is here on my You Tube channel!

Join us on the discord for part 2 coming..... uh, sometime!

Life Update: January 2018

January was an interesting one. I went back to college again, hoping to change myself to make my life better, but to no avail. I feel like sometimes I'm just spinning my wheels instead of moving forward towards a goal of some sort. I'm getting better study habits and managing myself better, but sometimes it just seems futile.

 I've tried to distract myself from this reality by putting my efforts into videos and other projects, and that seems to be working. As I'm writing this the script for my first video is done, the live read of Shadow Destiny is going up on YouTube, and I'm getting ready to record more lines for voice acting. All in all I'm hoping that by motivating myself to keep up with this blog and clean up my channel, I can get some of my life back together.

Dating has been a bust though. I've gotten tinder matches but I got stood up by another date. She said she was sick, and that we should reschedule, but hasn't messaged me back sense. Is there something wrong with me? Is there some innate thing people see in me that is just repulsive? I don't understand what Pika sees in me most times. She's still so kind to me, saying I'm nicer than everyone else, but I know that's not true. Perhaps one day,  my nightmare will become reality when she discovers whatever is driving people away from me and finally abandons me herself. I know she won't do that, but the fear is there. If that were to happen, honestly, that would just break me. Here's to hoping I'm just psychotic...