I was in a debate!

Even though the first debate fell through the second I put together is up for your viewing!

Sit back, relax, and enjoy the dumpster fire!

9 years 3 preview

 Let me begin where I left off... 

Part 3 

>The end of summer was bittersweet for me 

>It had been decided that my therapy with Professor Willow would end 

>We had our final session sometime during the summer
>Can’t remember if it was before or after camp 

>But what I do remember it was cozy 

>We talked about the future  

>How to deal with Mankey’s shit 

>”If you ever need me, feel free to give me a call” he said 

>We walked out into the parking lot 

>And gazed up at the stars 

>It was windy 

>And dark 

>But still the stars shone brightly over us 

>I assumed the worst of my bullying issues were over 

>Professor Willow was hopeful things would calm down when middle school picked up 

>We ran into one of his secretaries out there 

>Talked to her for a bit 

>And finally said our goodbyes 

>It felt nice to have him around 

>Felt even better to feel like I didn’t need him anymore 

>The future was bright 

>I had a chance with Caterpie 

>Middle school was going to be different 

>I just knew it 

>My mom finally came and picked me up 

>I felt a bit of remorse  

>I hadn’t told him everything 

>Truth was, I was afraid 

>Afraid he would tell other 

>Afraid he wouldn’t understand 

>Just afraid in general 

>Rumors were Voltorb would return in 7th grade 

>I knew things would flare up if that happened 

>I told him I’d call him if they did 

>But I was still keeping things from him 

>If I could change one thing about my life 

>Its that I would tell him everything 

>Fast forward to school starting 

>6th grade 

>This was going to be interesting 

>No longer did I have to deal with one teacher 

>I could pick and choose who I hung out with 

>feelsgood.jpg 

>First day rolls around 

>I get my locks for my locker 

>Get my books 

>The usual shit 

>Finally, I get to meet some of my teachers 

>One of the first ones I met was my religion teacher 

>Let’s call him Professor Oak 

>He was a quadriplegic dude 

>Got into a bad car accident on his honeymoon 

>Paralyzed fully from waist down, partially from his hands 

>But man was he a bro 

>Every day he would drive to school in his wheelchair 

>I’d pass him on the road on the way there 

>He would do like 35 in that thing 

>It was impressive 

>He was always such a jolly dude 

>Cracking jokes whenever he could 

>His insight into Catholicism was like nothing I had seen before 

>He could always find a way to relate the church’s teachings to us 

>Looking back, he was practically the only thing keeping me in the faith 

>That and strict dogmatism 

>He knew me from my sister, so I was familiar with how well liked he was from her anecdotes 

>He did the usual handing out of the syllabus  

>Made us sign it 

>Made our parents sign it 

>Yada yada yada 

>And then we moved on to the next class 

>The way the school was set up, the 6 middle school teachers were paired in blocks of 3 

>Social studies and Religion 

>Math and Science 

>Liturature and English 

>Each of these teachers would receive one class from a specific grade for an hour, then switch 

>So, that meant: 

>2 8th grade classes 

>2 7th grade classes 

>2 6th grade classes 

>And these would be mixed up between blocks as to allow the kids to interact with their friends more 

>And with their enemies 

>Social studies was up next 

>It was taught by a familiar teacher by the name of Professor Peacock 

>She was the old computer sciences teacher from elementary school 

>She moved away then came back 

>This time as a social studies teacher 

>Like professor oak, she was a bro 

>Knew a ton about history 

>Taught very well 

>Took no shit 

>Some of my favorite moments of that class were when she would call out dumbasses being dumbasses 

>It was glorious 

>She also knew me from my sister 

>She liked me because I had a good work ethic in that class 

>And generally enjoyed history 

>I don’t think it surprises anyone to learn I’m a history nerd 

>Looking back, she almost certainly knew about the bullying going on 

>And judging from her animosity towards Professor Snape, the vice-principal, I’m guessing she brought it up with her more than one time 

>But we will get to how Professor Snape didn’t give a fuck soon 

>soon.tm 

>But anyways, that brings me to my science teacher 

>Professor Juniper 

>Professor Juniper was, in a word, batshit insane 

>Hee looked 80 years old, but you could’ve told me she was 120 and I would’ve believed you 

>He should have retired like 40 years earlier>My favorite story from my sister about her was when he was feeling a bit under the weather, so she didn’t bother teaching 

>Everyone was goofing off after he gave them a handout to do 

>It was raining outside and some students had gathered up some tadpoles and put them in a jar 

>Suddenly he lifts her head 

>he screams 

>WHATS GOING ON WITH THE FISH 

>whatintheactualfuck.zip 

>Everyone just laughed their asses off 

>needless to say, we did not get anything done in that class 

Couple of updates

As you all know, I was not in a debate the other night. Unfortunately, my opponent and I had a falling out (its a long story) but rest assured I did debate last night.

As far as 9 years goes, I will release the first part on the blog tonight, since I will be out of town until new years. I'll finish it up as I'll have plenty of free time. I’ll see you guys in 2019!

I'm in a debate tonight!

I know I haven't been very political on this blog before, so if you're not interested in hearing this debate because fuck politics, I completely understand. I just wanted to try something new out and see how it goes. 

I challenged the grand old folks at r/debatealtright to put their money where their mouth is and actually take part in a structured debate. u/TheMythOf_Feminism took me up on the offer, and the Non-Sequitur Show has agreed to host it. The topic is the establishment of a white ethnostate in America, whether it is a good idea or not.

TL;DR debate at 8pm EST tonight on the Non-Sequitur Show, possible dumpster-fire.

The structure:

The debate will be structured like so: A brief introduction of both parties, then 20 minutes will be allocated to each side to state their claim, 15 minutes will be allocated to each side for their rebuttals, and 10 minutes will be allocated to each side for a counter-rebuttal, before breaking out into unstructured discussion. The Non-Sequitur Show will moderate.

The positions:

/u/TheMythOf_Feminism:

• An ethnostate being formed in the U.S. would simply require the citizenry to have two of their forgotten rights to be upheld, one would be property rights in general and the other freedom of association. To actively these rights to any group of people that wish nothing other than to be among others like themselves requires an active subjugation of those involved for no other reason than personal selfishness, insecurity or actual racial hatred of white people.
• An ethnostate is a planned form of governance and people that seek the preservation and control of a certain type of people, in this case on the basis of race or whatever white people see fit as justifying allowing entry.

/u/Kaanfight:

• Ethnostates in the modern age are fundamentally unsound. The United States has never been a white ethnostate and to advocate for such is laughable. Historical precedent shows huge flaws that plague single ethnicity states, and the establishment of such in the U.S. requires nothing less than genocide. Reactionary ideology fuels these ideas, and a fear of immigrants stretching back centuries proves its failure to accurately predict future crises and form policy counter to said crises. All in all, diversity is America's greatest strength, and to bow to our most tribalist fears will hurt this nation in the long run.
• An ethnostate is a form of governance predicated upon the hegemony of a particular race. To maintain said hegemony, freedoms must be stripped from the people, thereby making ethnostates fundamentally totalitarian in nature.

I'm personally excited for this as I'm putting all my notes together and getting all my ducks in a row. I hope I can do you guys justice when I go to bat! Or, at the very least, make an entertaining dumpster-fire. See y'all at 8!

9 Years: 9 years of updates

Quick update: I lost a bunch of the story when I went to upload on Wednesday. I'm working on re-writes, so it should be up soon, but I've been focusing on my debate tonight so I should have it done by Sunday/Monday. I hate that whenever the finish-line is in sight, something always fucks up.

Life Update: November 2018

November was kinda nice. I'm disappointed I didn't get 9 years III out on time, but at the same time super happy about my CutCo video. I'm planning on doing at least 2 videos over the break, (following the schedule I had made in like July-ish, I might make adjustments based on my own judgement), and the enthusiasm shown towards my previous uploads is exactly the kind of push I need to get it done. Thanks so much for the support! 9 years III will be coming out on December 12, unless I die or something. I just want to get this labor of love over with, I've dragged it on too long and I want to move on. All I can hope for now is that you guys enjoy it.

I basically worked my ass off all thanksgiving. I guess that's partly why I got my act together and finished my video; if I can make a meager living off You Tube, I won't have to go back to that god-forsaken place. Don't get me wrong, my boss and my coworkers are great, it's the goddamn customers that make me want to invest in a shotgun. Dear God, how can someone get so pissed off getting a 14 lbs turkey instead of a 15 lbs turkey. Oh no! Thanksgiving is ruined! Little Johnny is going to starve to death because the family didn't have that extra pound of turkey to give him! Give me a break. Honestly, I'm shocked I haven't snapped and just tried to strangle someone from over the counter. I think that says a lot about my self control. Or, the fact that I even have that fantasy probably says more about my mental state. Eh, take your pick.

Pika's been good. I haven't had a whole lot of communication with her this month, and I'm kinda bummed. Most of that is my fault, I just forget to text people back. I'm just concerned about losing contact with her, I suppose. My anxiety has really been acting up lately, so it's hard to not be worried about, well, anything. I know we would never knowingly just break off communications for no reason, but I get this creeping feeling I might do it accidentally because I'm a moron. Whatever the case, I haven't heard if she's dating the magic dude from a while back. I hope she is, he seemed like a nice guy and I just want her to be happy.

Speaking of relationships, I've been involved with one myself. I met a girl (off /r9k/ of all places) and we've really hit it off. I wanted to give her a pokemon name, but she wasn't too keen on the idea. It's taken all my willpower to not give her the worst name just to annoy her, as I know she's reading this (Hi!). Anyways, she's been really kind and receptive to my bad jokes. She's hilarious herself, and we can really play off each other. I've been very open about my insecurities and worries, of which I have many, and she's been super understanding. That's a super difficult trait to come by, so that's a very good sign. Being honest and venerable with her is easy. I hope this goes somewhere, but only time will tell. Sappy paragraph over.

I went to a cutco interview so you don't have to!

So this was the surprise I've been talking about for quite some time, hope you guys enjoy this! I certainly enjoyed making it and fucking with Vector!

9 years 3 update.... again

Obviously, 9 years part 3 did not come out on the 22nd. It's pretty much done, I just need to re-read it and iron out any mistakes, but I didn't post it because I had to work then. I was banking on being off, as it takes me a while to put it up and I wanted to talk to you guys, but they called me in. My plan is to move it one last time (hopfully) to beyond my finals (December 12 to be exact) and be done with it. Thank you all for your patience with my shitty procrastination!

Life Update: October 2018

October was nice and quiet. I've been working on 9 years, homework, and various other projects I have in the works. I had fun at some Halloween parties, ate a lot of candy, and generally had a nice time. I think I'm starting to get used to college. It's a lot less lonely now that I live with Jolteon and Flareon, I feel I get along better with them better than my old roommate.

Pika's been quiet, but we still talk. She met a dude on a dating site and he got her to start getting into Magic: The Gathering. I, of course, am ecstatic about this, being the huge nerd I am. Mostly, I just want to share all the memes with her and have a good laugh. Random guy, I don't know who you are, but you're pretty chill in my eyes. I just hope she's still into it next time she visits, so I can kick her ass!

I'm trying to be more responsible with this blog and other things, so I've actually been making tons of progress on stuff I wanted to get done. Once We Were Gods chapter 2 is finished, and I'm already working on chapter 3. Since that's just going to be a short story, chapter 3 will likely be the last chapter. Besides 9 years coming out a week from today, I've got a few other goodies for you guys that have persisted. Stay tuned, November is going to be a busy one!

Writefag's corner: Once We Were Gods Chapter 2

Chapter two is up on the wixsite for this work! Check it out here!

9 Years a Pokemon will be released November 22 on R9K, exact time TBA

It's finally here! After a long road, 9 years is finally coming to an end. This chapter is going to be the most intense. I hope you all will enjoy it, even though it's been so long since I started this series. Thank you for sticking with me through this process, it means the world to me. Life update, Once We Were Gods chapter 2, and more coming soon! Be on the lookout!

Writefag's Corner: Once we were Gods

If you've been keeping up with Planetside 2, a fantastic fps mmo I've been playing on and off for a while, you'll know that recently they've decided to revamp the lore lately. I decided I wanted to take a crack at writing a story in that universe. I thought to myself, "What would happen if these seemingly immortal humans suddenly lost that invulnerability?" I took that idea and ran with it, creating Once We Were Gods. So far, just chapter 1 is up, but I'm almost finished with a second chapter. I'm intending it to be a three chapter short story, but I may continue it if you guys like it. Hope you enjoy!

Another note: from now on all my writefag's corners writings are going to be hosted on that wixsite, just because I want to keep this blog more personal writings and that website more professional writings. Not to say that my writing is going to be "more professional" there, the fucking homepage just proves that wrong, I just wanted it to be easier to find my writings as opposed to my blogging here. It's an organizational thing, really. 

Life update: September 2018

I am 20 now. God that feels weird to say. My birthday was this month, making me no longer a teenager, but as usual I feel no different. It's like everyone says, I feel no older than I was when I was, say, 15.

But, life has gotten better. I've been more on top of my classes as well as getting back into the swing of this blog. I'm actually excited about my classes for once. I think changing my major to history was the right choice. Also, it's nice to just take some time out of my day just to sit and write, whether it be here on the blog, for one of my classes, or just for myself. I enjoy the feedback you guys give me from discord, and its nice to get things off my chest.

I'm still (trying) to make videos. I want to be less of a lazy fuck and actually get myself back on a schedule, but I can't make any promises. Pretty much every video I listed in my pipeline in the beginning of the summer is in the works in one way shape or form, along with a couple others. I just need to commit to finishing projects I've started and not just abandon them.

9 years is coming out in November. I've been making good progress with it, and so long as I keep up this pace that is when it will come out. Of course, I'm horrid with dates, so just take that with a grain of salt. With the amount of shit that goes down in it though, I think it'll be worth the wait.

My love life has been mostly stagnant. I went out with another girl from tinder. She was nice but I don't see myself getting into a relationship with her. I've been talking to another girl too, but I also don't think much is going to come of that.

Pika was having a rough time the other day. Her cat just up and disappeared, and she was getting super worried. She had him chipped, so she went to the vets in the area to report it missing. Honestly, I was fearing the worst after three days, after all south Florida is gator country, but he finally came back. It was a relief, but also puzzling. He was missing his collar, so I suspect someone tried to steal him. That pisses me off. There's a bazillion other sweet cats out there that don't have homes, why would you try to take one that has a home? Pika's cat started out as a stray kitten, so it's ironic he's now so wanted someone tried to abduct him. However, he may have just lost it in the woods, so we can't know for certain. I just told her to keep an eye on any neighbors that show a peculiar interest in him.

Gifts from Pika

In May of this year, Pikachu decided to come up for my memorial day party. It was great! She was exactly how she was online, which was to say awesome! To my surprise she brought me gifts, as a thank you for all the stuff I'd sent her over the years.

First off, she got me some dice for my MtG addiction (which are always appreciated):

She also got me a Sableye Pokemon plushie and a pocket-watch and necklace from FullMetal Alchemist (the pocket-watch is REALLY nice and actually works!):

Last, but certainly not least, I got the Lego At-M6 set! Unfortunatly, I don't have it with me at college, but man oh man is it cool! I was as giddy as a schoolchild when I opened it! It's an epensive set, so I was shocked she got it for me. Here's a pic from Lego's website:

Honestly, this was the sweetest thing anyone's ever done for me. The entire experience of her visiting was awesome, and I really hope I could see her again. After 3 and a half long years, I finally was able to see her again, and it was worth it. I made sure to give her a big long hug after this. She was really bashful about being thanked, but I hope she know how awesome her kindness was. Pika, I love you! I love you so very much!

Life update: May June, July, August 2018

It's been a few, but now that my computer's fixed I can finally get back to posting on here. Enough with the formalities, here's the scoop.

May: I mostly just worked, but the biggest thing is Pika came down! I finally got to see her after 3 years, and it was great. She only stayed for memorial day weekend, but she brought me a bunch of gifts (which I'll make another post about), which is honestly the sweetest thing anyone's ever done for me. She was exactly as I remembered her. The only thing I felt bad about her parents. I just felt that because of the language barrier, I couldn't really talk to them, and I'm afraid I might have come off as rude. They were very nice, but I'm just afraid I wasn't the best host. Hopefully the next time we meet I can make a better impression.

June: Again, I worked. My department got a new manager, who's actually quite the bro. We started cleaning up the meat department, getting more organized, and just getting down to business in general. He's a cool guy, I've talked to him about Overwatch a bit and he's dabbled in anime. He's honestly a stand-up dude who deserves a better position than what he has. I just hope he moves on from the shitshow that is that store.

July: Worked, but I also went on a couple trips. I went to West Virginia to see my sister, who was interning at a theater company, and wound up touring a lot of Civil War battlefields (mainly Antietam and Gettysburg). Honestly, it made me sure that studying history was for me. I picked up the book Spring 1865 by Perry D. Jamieson and recently finished it. It's interesting to see just how deluded people get at the end of long wars. For instance, Jefferson Davis still believed he could win the war up until his capture, going against the judgement of his cabinet and his generals. It was also interesting to see just how badass Lincoln was. For some reason we have this idea that "Honest Abe" was mild mannered, kind and gentle. He was anything but. He was a man on a mission: to reunite the union. When in conferences with the confederates, the 16th president refused to acknowledge the south as it's own country, and did not give any credence to their cause. He didn't give two shits about what the southerners thought. He gave them two choices: come back and be accepted with open arms, or face the hellfire of the Union's armies. Savannah, Atlanta, and most of South Carolina chose the latter. It was honestly a mistake that he was assassinated, from a southern perspective. Lincoln's policy was to "let 'em down easy," a policy which was not mirrored by his successor, Johnson (especially after "The South" killed the president and maimed his staff). Wow, that was a long tangent.

August: School's started, and I'm honestly pretty happy. My classes are interesting. I enjoy them, and I actually like doing the homework in some! I'm just glad there's no goddamn math. I can just nerd out about Abe Lincoln. That makes me happy. Honestly, I'm glad I've found something I feel I can devote my life to.

Where have I been?

So, it's been a while, I know. Between work and vacations and such, it's been busy. Honestly, though, the biggest setback has been my hard drive crash. My laptop died a while back, and with it, some of my unfinished videos. Fear not! I'm currently working on my "Ancient Autopsy" video on Pilate, which will hopefully be out within the week. As far as the schedule goes, I'm going to try to work up to doing one video a week, but for now I'm going to work on videos at my own pace since school is picking back up. I want to make videos, I really do, but I'm just having trouble finding the time and motivation to do so.

I'm going to do a joint June/July life update, since nothing much happened in July and all the juicy bits happened in June. That will be out by the end of the month.

I'm moving ahead on my Star Wars comic as well, here is some rough art I did with my new drawing tablet, just to show I haven't been doing nothing the past two months.

And finally, 9 years part 3 release date is November. I still have a long ways to work on it, so I want to give myself time, but if all goes well it should be worth the wait.

Thanks for sticking with me through all of this, though!

Video Schedule

So, I've decided to put myself on a video schedule to not only try to grow my channel, but to also challenge myself to do what I'm passionate about and give you guys the content you want. I'll be posting a new video every Wednesday, and for the most part they'll be history themed. Here's the first couple of weeks for you guys!

Wednesday, May 23: Memes of WW2

Wednesday, May 30: Crackpot Design: Tractor Tanks

Wednesday, June 6: Are Traps Gay? A Historical analysis

Wednesday, June 13: Ancient Autopsy: Pontius Pilate

This will introduce 2 new long running series I plan to do

1. Crackpot Design: A look into weird vehicles you have to be on crack to design. At the beginning, I will focus on strange WW2 aircraft and tanks (because that's what I know best) and branching out from there

2. Ancient Autopsy: Video essays on famous figures in ancient history, with an emphasis on religious figures, their lives, and what maladies may have befallen them. This series combines ancient texts with modern day medicine to see what kind of physical and mental impairments they may have had.

Life Update: April 2018

April was much like March, and TBH, it went by so fast I barely noticed the difference between them. I finished up finals with a whimper as I didn't do as well as I wanted on them. I ended up failing trig, which pissed me off. I tried so hard for that class and studied my ass off, but in the end I still wasn't good enough. It really hurts, you know? I've always considered myself somewhat intelligent, but after doing horribly in school I'm not so sure anymore. Even more so considering its pretty much all I had going for me. If I am just an idiot, is there any hope for me? I don't know. I hate saying that, but it's all I am certain of at this point.

I'm officially changing my major to History, as I realized its what I enjoy more and it doesn't include a ton of math. I enjoyed doing that English project I shared with you guys, as well as an archaeology project I'll share later, and I really feel writing about History is  what I want to do with my life. I've already spent hours and hours writing for this blog and other stuff, might as well put that experience to good use, right?

Pika has had it hard. I mentioned her breakup earlier, but its gotten worse. Apparently Machamp and his friends got angry that she didn't feel comfortable being friends with them anymore, claiming she needed some space, and started giving her shit for it. That, and Machamp went to prom with one of her friends like a week later. She's pretty heartbroken, and I don't blame her. She tends to put a lot of love into her relationships, and to have Machamp just kinda give up on her has to hurt. She's been confiding in me a lot. She said we need each other right now, and with the way school's been going for me I couldn't agree more. She wanted me to come down to go to prom with her, but unfortunately that didn't work out. Pika is coming up to see me on Memorial Day, though. I'm super excited to introduce her to all my friends. As shitty as life has been, things are looking up.

As far as video making is concerned, I'm a little annoyed with myself. Memes of WW2 has been sitting on my hard drive half edited for months now, and I've just been too busy with school/lazy to do much with it. Now that I only have to worry about work, which is basically just having to worry about being on time, I can put my effort into this blog, streaming, writing 9 years, and YouTube. I'm hoping that by giving myself a strict schedule (which I will be posting soon) and sticking to it, I can stop neglecting you guys and give you the content you deserve. It's going to be a great summer folks!

Accursed

So here's a video I made for my English class' final project. I put a lot of effort into it and it's kinda the reason why I've gone AWOL for a bit. Enjoy!

Gifts to Pika 2: Electric Pokemon boga-loo

So for Pika's birthday I decided to get her a cute onezie as well as a bit of a comic. I've recently started working on my art, so I took a crack at a quick Star Wars comic that'll continue to work on and send to her. It's not the best art, but it's something! Here are some pictures!

Life Update: March 2018

March was a busy one, as you can probably tell by me writing this near the end of April. I took a short spring break but unfortunately I didn't break much new ground on videos and other content I wanted to create. It's become so hard for me to find motivation sometimes, and I really need to kick my ass to get anything done nowadays. However, I'm trying to power though it and am making progress slowly but surely.

I had another couple tinder dates in March, one that went great and one that didn't. I'll probably write up the stories of both dates later, but lets just say I'm actively talking to one and haven't spoken to the other. The girl I am talking to I can't do much with at the moment, as it's become crunch time for classes and we are all super stressed out for them. Hopefully we can do something after exams.

Speaking of exams, I want to die! School is stressful as always, and I don't know if I'm going to be able to pass my trig class. I studied really hard for a test the other day and just absolutly bombed it. I don't know why I try anymore. The more effort I put in, the less I seem to get out. I'm talking to the professor about it, and he might be able to help me, but I wouldn't get my hopes up. I'm just confused about life at the moment. Am I really meant to be here? Is this really what I should be doing? Is this worth doing? I don't know, and that scares the shit out of me.

Pika and Machamp broke up. I kinda saw this coming, as she was complaining about him a bit and started referring to him as "my boyfriend" rather than just his name. It a bit obvious their relationship was straining, but apparently they grew really distant. Machamp broke it off because he just didn't feel that spark anymore, and didn't think he could keep the relationship going through college. Pikachu's been really down about it lately, she told me she felt like he gave up on her. I feel bad for her, breakups are hard and she seems to not be taking it well. I'm trying to comfort her best I can in this hard time, I know she'd do the same for me. In any case, I just want her to be happy again. I love it when my special kitty is happy.

Life update: February 2018

Damn, February went by fast! This month was pretty eventful, and I've got a lot of info to fill I'll you guys in on, so let's get into it!

Firstly: videos. I've been working on my first video for a while, I just need to find out how to fix the echo on the audio because my dorm room sounds like I'm recording in a closet, but other than that I've been getting used to vegas so hopefully I can start making things faster. Also: Shadow Destiny live read number 2 is still TBA, in just trying to coordinate a good time to do it in the discord.

I've also started to dabble a bit in art. It started as doodling but now I'm just trying to improve myself so one day I might be competent at it. Pika's been egging me on this whole time, so she's happy I've gotten into it more. I'm promised to send her a bit of a drawing with her birthday present this month, and I might throw that up here when it's done.

As far as romance I went on a bit of another tinder date the other day. Thankfully she didn't blow me off, and I taught her how to play Magic for a bit. She seemed to really enjoy it, and I had a good time too! I'm hoping to hang out with her sometime this week, but she's so busy that might not happen until next weekend. Who knows if this goes anywhere, but I'm excited nonetheless.

College grades are actually looking good for once. Besides some hiccups in trig I've been more on top of my work and tests than ever before. I think I'm starting to get the hang of college, here's to hoping that my first experiences were just a rough patch!

9 years part 3 update

So, for the last couple months I've been on and off working on part 3. It's getting there, but I feel like I need to take a break to focus on schoolwork and other projects. As much as it interests me to talk about my past, I've just got a little burned out by it all. I have deiced to officially put the series on hiatus, but don't worry, I'll still be making content and still be working on it sporadically, but don't expect it to come out until this summer. I know many of you were looking forward to this, and I'm sorry to let you down. I feel that it is my duty to you guys to put the most effort into my work, and I felt like I wasn't doing it justice by trying to rush it. I hope you all understand, and have a great day :)

Shadow Destiny Part 1 live read is here!

For any of you that missed it, the live read of Shadow Destiny is here on my You Tube channel!

Join us on the discord for part 2 coming..... uh, sometime!

Life Update: January 2018

January was an interesting one. I went back to college again, hoping to change myself to make my life better, but to no avail. I feel like sometimes I'm just spinning my wheels instead of moving forward towards a goal of some sort. I'm getting better study habits and managing myself better, but sometimes it just seems futile.

 I've tried to distract myself from this reality by putting my efforts into videos and other projects, and that seems to be working. As I'm writing this the script for my first video is done, the live read of Shadow Destiny is going up on YouTube, and I'm getting ready to record more lines for voice acting. All in all I'm hoping that by motivating myself to keep up with this blog and clean up my channel, I can get some of my life back together.

Dating has been a bust though. I've gotten tinder matches but I got stood up by another date. She said she was sick, and that we should reschedule, but hasn't messaged me back sense. Is there something wrong with me? Is there some innate thing people see in me that is just repulsive? I don't understand what Pika sees in me most times. She's still so kind to me, saying I'm nicer than everyone else, but I know that's not true. Perhaps one day,  my nightmare will become reality when she discovers whatever is driving people away from me and finally abandons me herself. I know she won't do that, but the fear is there. If that were to happen, honestly, that would just break me. Here's to hoping I'm just psychotic...

Shadow Destiny part 2 tomorrow!

Tomorrow at 7:00est I will be concluding my reading of my shitty fan fiction Shadow Destiny, thanks for all that showed up tonight and to everyone else I hope to see you tomorrow! Get ready for even more edge!!!

Edit: moved to January 24 at 8est due to scheduling conflicts

Change of plans: Monday at 8pm EST now

Im changing the time of the live read because I wasn't anticipating my roommate going to sleep so early. No worries! Monday at 8pm est is the new time.

Live read of Shadow Destiny Tomorrow at 8pm!

Tomorrow 8pm est the world shall finally see the horror of Shadow Destiny: a bad fanfic I made and will be reading on the discord server. Prepare yourselves. If you haven't joined the server Here is the link. Join it, if you dare....


And for those who want to witness the atrocities unfold but cannot make it, I shall be posting the entire thing on YouTube, for all the world to know my pain.

Writefag's corner: Shadow Destiny

Originally I wanted to release this after 9 years part 3 because it plays a part in it, I decided to give you guys a little treat to pass the time. This is Shadow Destiny, a Bionicle fanfiction I wrote in seventh grade because I was hoplessly obsessed with Bionicle. I'm laughing my ass off reading back over it, so much so I'm tempted to do a bit of a live read on discord and have a good time! I'll update you guys if I decide to do that! Without further ado lets go down the rabbit hole!

I'm voice acting in a video!

I recently did some voice acting/writing for a video, come check it out!

One year on the blog: looking back and looking forward!

Man, I can't believe its been over a year since the blog started. It's been interesting, I must say. I never dreamed of reaching so many people in such a relatively short time-span, and the response to this has been overwhelmingly positive. I just want to say thank you to you all again, it really means a ton that you guys support me the way you do.

Now to some statistics. Last year we had approximate 10,402 views on the blog. For a small start-up blog, that's incredible! Our least viewed month was August 2017 with only 252 views, and our most viewed is November 2017 with a whopping 2,792! That's pretty great. My goal for 2018 is 15,000 views, let's see if we can do it (and if not I'll just refresh the page 15,000 times)!

The next item on the agenda is projects. In 2017 I experimented with some streaming, though due to my dorm's poor internet connection and reliability issues, I'm going to have to put those on hold unfortunately. Until I return home for the summer, there will likely not be any streams. 

The biggest ongoing project with the blog is, of course as you all know, 9 years a Pokemon. Part three has proven to be quite the undertaking, and for as much as I've gotten done of it, there's still so much more. Writing it also has the added difficulty of emotional baggage: as much as I get into a groove with getting stuff done I have to take a break from it just to save my own sanity. Rest assured, it is coming, slowly and surely.

Now on to some even more exciting stuff: Voice acting! Recently, Y Ddraig and I have been working on a warhammer lore video he's going to put up on his channel soon. I hope to do much more voice acting in the future, and am actively looking for projects to audition for. So, if you like that video (which I'll link here when it's up) and know someone who needs a voice actor, don't forget to mention me to 'em! I'd really appreciate it!

Last, but certainly not least, is my YouTube channel. Recently, I decided to gut it of all my old stuff I put on there from middle school and am currently working on several history themed videos for your guys' amusement. My first video will be called "Memes of World War 2" and will be coming out (hopfully) within the next month. Stay tuned for updates on that! Also, when 9 years part 3 is done, I'll re-release those old cringey videos of yesteryear just for fun and talk a little about how they fit into the story of my middle school life as a whole.

Ninja edit: I also wanted to assure everyone that the podcast is still going to go on, but due to issues with microphones and recording I don't know when. As far as I know, Pika still wants to do it, and I'll probably bring up a couple other people who might be interested (like sandshrew, Jolteon, Flareon, etc.) but I still want the initial one to be just Pika. 

All in all, I love you guys so much, I hope you had a happy new year and are ready to hit the ground running in 2018!

Life Update: December 2017

December was a busy one for me. I finished my finals and headed home. I pretty much worked at the store the entire break, which was ok. I mean, the money was good, but telling people for the tenth time there is no "ground ham" here nor at any "Polish supermarkets" nearby made me want to gouge my own eyes out. But work is work, so I can't complain. As far as school goes, I'm worried as fuck. My GPA wasn't that good this semester, and I'm afraid I might lose my scholarship. I'm pissed as fuck because the two classes I got 2 Ds in I took in high school! Somehow, even with studying, I couldn't pass. Next semester, I think I'll get a tutor.

On the bright side, Pika's letter was unexpected and cute, and I finally finished my voice acting for a guy's video (I'll link it when it's done). I was also discussing maybe changing majors with my parents. Thankfully, they seemed rather supportive, but I'm still on the fence. I've wanted to do geology ever since I was a kid, but I just have a passion for history. Hell, my script for my latest YouTube video about the memes of world war 2 (also link when that's finished) almost done, and that was just for fun! I'm conflicted, but I know I've got to follow my heart.

In slightly more somber news, the Catholic Church associated with the Catholic school I went to as a kid (the one that turned a blind eye to me and my friends) is currently trying to build a new church, for some reason? They claim they wanted more room, but instead of upgrading and expanding the current church, they'd rather ask for FOUR MILLION DOLLARS from their parishioners to build an ungodly exorbitant new curch. Now this is absurd, and I'm not even going to get into how they practically bullied the poor guy who had the property where they're going to build it before them off of his own land! Even more crazy is that this is ON TOP OF a gym they have to rebuild after a hurricane destroyed the old one (in a dramatic twist of irony I might add, as the year prior they spent a stupid amount of money redoing the floor), for which they're asking for separate donations. If I sound mad, it's because I am, especially since my parents are hosting a giant fundraiser for the whole thing, complete with harassing people on social media! It makes me even more angry knowing that the church still refuses to accept there even IS a bullying problem, let alone try and fix it. And why should they, after all it's in their best interest not to: the troublesome kids have parents who happen to be the biggest donors. I want to speak out, but I'm so afraid of my parents' backlash. I don't want to lose my college education just because some assholes want a new playground. At the same time, I honestly hoped they fix the issues at that school, but watching them pull the same old bullshit, proving they've learned nothing makes my blood boil. Sometimes, the world sucks.